There’s reason, trying to hook me up with someone through the internet isn’t working. Well it might have, but we didn’t click as naturally as his current boy.
I feel like God wants me to meet someone the old fashion way. That I could do better than online hook ups. Coincidentally meeting the One, at a Public Place. I’d prefer meeting someone in person first anyways. God has something planned for me, I don’t know what or how or when. All I could do is wait, and time will tell.
The instant happiness you get from seeing them. Your inner fan girl screams when you guys accidentally touch. The race of your heart when they start the conversation with you. The butterflies you get when they smile at you. The tossing and turning of emotions when you see them with someone else who has a better chance with them than you. The exciting feeling you get when they trust you with something. The Love and Hate feelings you have towards them for being them.
This is how I could tell when I’ve got it bad, for someone.
I’ve noticed how Cute some of the Freshmen guys are at my school but they look like they could be at least Sophomores. One of them is in my Spanish class and he’s really cute and he’s taller than me. (I love Asians who are taller than me. :3) I only admire from a far. But today I was called to answer a question and it was muy mal (very bad :c) I knew my answer was wrong but I had to say something. and the Cute guy finally said something to/about me, it was nothing I expected either. He was all, “This nigga is hella smart.” He was obviously being sarcastic so I laughed. Why do I like the guys who are bad, not very school achieving, or hypesters? eh but he was cute. I don’t know…
But I realized I don’t really know him. It’s not that I like him but it’s more of a lust for him and his looks. I should wait for someone to make me fall for them, so I know what I feel is True and Sincere. Wait for the Heart Skipping beats, the Butterflies, and the Happiness of just seeing that one certain person. I could wait. :3
Love Over Lust.
